Twins

This past Friday I was having some pain in my right side. So, the doctor asked me to come in on Monday. The doctor examined me and listened to the baby's heartbeat. She said everything seemed okay, but wanted me to go the hospital for an ultrasound (her ultrasound tech was not in) just to be on the safe side. During the ultrasound the tech asked me if I've had an ultrasound with this pregnancy yet. I told her yes, it was when I was at six weeks. She asked if we were able to see anything at that time. I started getting a little worried when she asked me that, but I told her, "yes, but the baby was so small and we could just barely see the heartbeat." Then came the words that totally shocked me. She asked, "Did they tell you it was two?"

Two...are you serious!!! She turned the screen so that I could see them. Sure enough there they were. Two of them! I was speechless. All I could do was cry. I couldn't wait to leave the hospital so I could call Danny and tell him the news. I am just amazed!

Well, after finding out this news, my doctor wanted to see me back on Tuesday. They did another ultrasound at the doctors office just to confirm what the hospital had told them. Then my doctor came in and talked to me. She told me they are very concerned because they believe that I have Monoamniotic twins. Which means they share the same amniotic sac. There is no seperation between the babies. This occurs in only 1% of twin pregnancies. She decided it would be best to send me to Duke. I have researched Monoamniotic twins on the internet. Some of the information can be kind of scary. However, I have full trust in the Lord. I told Danny that this is the way the Lord likes to work. When we have to put all of our faith, hope, and trust in the Lord, and lean completely on Him, He will never let us down. The Lord likes to work in these types of situations. When all people can say is....But God!

I thank the Lord for entrusting me with Little Danny and now these twins. All I can do is be the best mommy I know how to be with the Lords help. Please keep all of us in your prayers.

6 months

Monday, April 5th was 6 months since Little Danny went to be with the Lord. Has it really been 6 months? Sometimes it seems like it was just yesterday that I held him in my arms, and sometimes it feels like it's been forever since I kissed his little cheek. I still miss him so much. Most days these days are good. I don't cry as much anymore.  I still look at his picture that is right beside my bed everyday. My heart still longs to be with him. However, I still find peace in knowing that he is in the arms of Jesus, and that one day I will be with him, where we will never have to part again.

Well, I guess the dream that I had in February wasn't just the pizza I ate. God was telling me something very special, because in March we found out that we are going to be parents again! We are totally excited and are praying that everything goes well. Please keep us in your prayers.

I had a doctor's appointment on April 5th. I was able to see baby #2's heartbeat for the first time. I was very excited! I thought about how God gives us such good blessings. When I woke up that morning I thought about how 6 months ago I heard the dreaded words no mommy should ever have to hear, "there is no heartbeat", and how sad I was that day. However, by the end of the day on April 5th, I thought about how God is so good to his children, that He allowed me to see the heartbeat of our second child that day. He knew that I needed something special that day to brighten my spirtis. He always knows what you need when you need it. This child will never take the place of Little Danny, he will always be our first child and will always have a special place in our hearts. But I thank God for giving us another child, and I give Him all the praise and honor for it.

Dreaming of Easter

With Easter approaching this Sunday, my memory brings me back to a dream that I had when I was pregnant with Little Danny. About a month before we lost him, which would have been in September, I had a dream about Easter. When I had the dream I thought it strange, since September is long after Easter. I even remember questioning, "Why in the world would I have a dream about Easter in September?"

In my dream I was holding Little Danny, he was probably about a year old. He was in a cute little Easter outfit and he was holding a white Easter basket that had colored eggs in it. They were so brightly colored. I remember them being a bright yellow, pink, green, blue...I remember thinking how bright everything was. The grass was so green and the sky was so blue. I remember my mom and older sister being there with us and everyone was so happy.  Little Danny was talking to my younger sister on the phone, and he said, "I love you, Ciao." And we all started laughing. I remember thinking, "Okay that was weird."

Now that time has passed, I completely understand the dream. I thank God for the dream. Easter represents  the resurrection. Eveything being so bright is God's way of showing me that Little Danny is in heaven today. I looked up the definition of the Italian word Ciao. This is what it said, "an acknowledgment that can be used to say hello or goodbye." I wonder if that is why he used the Italian word, instead of using the English word, Goodbye. Because Ciao can mean hello or goodbye. I believe it was God's way of allowing Little Danny to tell us goodbye for now....but Easter (the resurrection) is coming, and then he will say hello to us again.

I look forward to that day, when I will see the Lord face to face. I will know as He knows. I will be reunited with Little Danny and all my loved ones that have gone before me. Oh, what a day that will be!

Here are the words to the song, "What A Day That Will Be", that says it so well.

There is coming a day when no heartaches shall come


No more clouds in the sky, no more tears to dim the eye.

All is peace forevermore on that happy golden shore,

What a day, glorious day that will be.



What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall see,

And I look upon His face,

The One who saved me by His grace;

When He takes me by the hand

And leads me through the Promised Land,

What a day, glorious day that will be.

There'll be no sorrow there, no more burdens to bear,

No more sickness, no pain, no more parting over there;

And forever I will be with the One who died for me,

What a day, glorious day that will be.



What a day that will be when my Jesus I shall see,

And I look upon His face,

The One who saved me by His grace;

When He takes me by the hand

And leads me through the Promised Land,

What a day, glorious day that will be.

What a day, glorious day that will be!